It’s a rainy, depressing, flood-filled day today. This is my first semester and I foolishly chose to study remotely from Canada in hopes to stay closer to family during these unusual times. However, I regret my choices. I find that, although this semester has been fast-paced and is nearing its end, it has been nervously difficult. Living at home has its perks. I’m able to avoid insane amounts of rent. I’m also able to work part-time or fulltime because I do not face any restrictions, whereas if I were in the UK, I would have to jump through many hoops only to be able to work 20 hours. I have also been fortunate enough to occasionally go out with my friends, as well as connect with people from the first-year JD Pathway program. It has been nice, and I am grateful, but it has been difficult. Living at home, has its many perks, like the aforementioned, but I have also been asked ‘are you even studying?’ or the typical ‘let’s go to dinner’ every second night. It’s nice knowing that friends and family want to spend time with you, but as someone in their first semester of law school that is being instructed from another country, it’s insanely overwhelming.
A lot of the remote students have been struggling to keep up with the course loads because of the social culture associated with their lives at home. Throughout this semester, I have contemplated joining in-person learning for next semester, but the thought of leaving makes me anxious; as I’m sure it does others as well. But after a long and hard look at the current semester, I have decided to partake in in-person learning for next semester. I find that living alone and away from home during studies will help far more because the stress of the at-home social life will no longer exist. But with this decision comes the fear of losing the friends and connections back home and many factors play key roles in this loss; one of the main ones being the time difference. To get over this fear, I suppose two options would be to be in touch with those people constantly via text or to simply look forward to the many new connections that will arise out of the in-person learning in the UK.
“Growth is painful. Change is painful. But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong” – N.R. Narayana Murthy